I love that image. It’s always nice to be reminded that no matter where I am in my life, I’m not too late in getting there.
I would always feel like I was falling behind everyone. I left school at 16, and started working. It was for this small cleaning company a ‘friend’ of my dads owned. Little did I know the guy had hired me illegally, I was young and stupid, but my money went into my bank and I thought I was queen of the world with all that cash. I never questioned that he never got me to sign anything, I never questioned the fact I made way less than all my friends who had legitimate jobs.
When I was eventually let go, I still didn’t know any better, at the height of the recession, jobs were scarce so references and background were fully checked. I didn’t have any of those, as a favour to him, he asked that I didn’t use him as a reference. I was an idiot back then. But at the time I didn’t know any better. It took me a long time to sort my life after that. I wish I could go back with the knowledge I have now and slap myself upside the head. Or him, hitting him would be better.
I fell into depression around then too (nice timing), i’d spend day after day in bed only getting up to use the bathroom or to go get some food, I didn’t even try to help myself. That point in my life I was at my lowest.
I thought I’d completely screwed up my life, I thought it was over, that I’d never be able to get a job or do anything for myself again.
But, I could, it took me some time, I needed to find the confidence to get up and go after what I wanted, first, that’s where bjj/mma came in. Those lessons, if you can stick with them, will give anyone a confidence boost. With that confidence, I decided to go back to school. Being a mature student, and walking into that class, was one of the most nerve wracking things I’ve ever done. But I’m glad I did, and I’m now in my second year and one of the top in my class (😄Brag), and well on my way to beginning a career doing what I love.
I’m not sure when exactly I made the decision to turn my life around, I’m not sure it was ever a decision, that could be made, it just sort of happens. Little by little, if you start small and go after the things you want, eventually you’ll gain the confidence to start wanting more and more for yourself. One thing leads to another and another, and all those things stack up.
So dont think that because your not where you want to be right now means you wont get there. There are plenty of ways, avenues open to those who think they’ve lost their path in life, a little research can go a long.
It’s not easy getting back in the saddle, but it is worth the effort to try.
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