100 days of happiness and fitness (day 4)

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It’s been a long time since the last 100 days post, I lost internet on wednesday morning, I figured it was minor and I thought in would be sorted by the next day but nope, Monday the guy says. No posts for 5 days :(. I’d only just taken up the 100 days challeng too 😧. No matter though, we can amble on a few days later than usual, I’ll just add in everything that happened since then.

Tuesday, was my first day teaching πŸ˜„. I teach the wee ninja class, 14 kids between the ages a 6 and 12 the joys of jiu jitsu… well mostly I would teach them not to hit or bite each other, but when they listen I teach them jiu jitsu.

I’m not used to being around kids, I think I have a little bit of a phobia of them or something. But when my coach asked me to help him out with the class I immediately said yes. Then I inwardly cringed, thinking “what have I gotten myself into?” I can’t work with kids, I don’t even like them. It was the most horrifying and exhausting thing i’d ever done, yet when the class started and I saw the looks on the little guys and girls faces when they get something right for the first time, the way they laughed and giggled during the games. It’s something I’ll never forget and it was truly a rewarding experience.

On Thursday I started my first swimming lesson. At 29 I was still terrified and froze up the moment my toes touched the water, but my S.O. was there to walk me through the initial horrers of wading into the 4 feet of water.

After a little splashing around, I finally worked up the courage to dunk my head under the water and look around. My nose filled with water immediately… lesson 1 hold your nose. On my second dunk my goggles started filling with water too, and my ears, it was all in all a very stressful experience. But I was enjoying every moment of it. Learning how to stay afloat, thrashing around like sharks, playing dead man, it was like a was kid again. I sometimes forget that physical activity can be fun, that it doesn’t have to be all sweat and turmoil, you can actually enjoy the experience of getting your cardio sessions in.

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Friday I worked with another kids class, we had a new boy in that was so terrified I thought he was going to pass out. I felt so bad for him, but every time I went to talk to him he’d run away and hide behind our coat racks, It was heartbreaking. As the class went on though and the games began, he got closer and closer to the mats, until finally when I beckoned him over, he joined in. I was ecstatic and he was… just beaming, we worked together as there was an uneven number, and with everything he get got right and every time I praised him his smile grew bigger and bigger, until he was giggling his way back to his mother. It was a weird feeling of accomplishment, one that I never thought about before.

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My weekend was boring as heck, I spent my time studying for my soft tissue injuries exam, so we didn’t miss much on that front. I’ll try to remain more consistent with the posts now that the aul internet is back.

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100 days of happiness and fitness (day 2)

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I love that image. It’s always nice to be reminded that no matter where I am in my life, I’m not too late in getting there.

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I would always feel like I was falling behind everyone. I left school at 16, and started working. It was for this small cleaning company a ‘friend’ of my dads owned. Little did I know the guy had hired me illegally, I was young and stupid, but my money went into my bank and I thought I was queen of the world with all that cash. I never questioned that he never got me to sign anything, I never questioned the fact I made way less than all my friends who had legitimate jobs.

When I was eventually let go, I still didn’t know any better, at the height of the recession, jobs were scarce so references and background were fully checked. I didn’t have any of those, as a favour to him, he asked that I didn’t use him as a reference. I was an idiot back then. But at the time I didn’t know any better. It took me a long time to sort my life after that. I wish I could go back with the knowledge I have now and slap myself upside the head. Or him, hitting him would be better.

I fell into depression around then too (nice timing), i’d spend day after day in bed only getting up to use the bathroom or to go get some food, I didn’t even try to help myself. That point in my life I was at my lowest.

I thought I’d completely screwed up my life, I thought it was over, that I’d never be able to get a job or do anything for myself again. 

But, I could, it took me some time, I needed to find the confidence to get up and go after what I wanted, first, that’s where bjj/mma came in. Those lessons,  if you can stick with them, will give anyone a confidence boost. With that confidence, I decided to go back to school. Being a mature student, and walking into that class, was one of the most nerve wracking things I’ve ever done. But I’m glad I did, and I’m now in my second year and one of the top in my class (πŸ˜„Brag), and well on my way to beginning a career doing what I love.

I’m not sure when exactly I made the decision to turn my life around, I’m not sure it was ever a decision, that could be made, it just sort of happens. Little by little, if you start small and go after the things you want, eventually you’ll gain the confidence to start wanting more and more for yourself. One thing leads to another and another, and all those things stack up.

So dont think that because your not where you want to be right now means you wont get there. There are plenty of ways, avenues open to those who think they’ve lost their path in life, a little research can go a long.

It’s not easy getting back in the saddle, but it is worth the effort to try.

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100 days of happiness and fitness (day 1)

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I’ve been seeing a lot of posts about 100 days of happiness. Where people share their thoughts and ideas on making life a little bit brighter. I also have a friend who in an effort the make the world a little bit fitter.

So I, in an effort to out do all that noise, πŸ˜„ am going to try and do 100 days of happiness and fitness.

I haven’t really given thought as to how I’m going to go about it. But seeing as its the end of mental health week, i’d like to continue in that mode.

I hope to have at least 1 post a day on what I’m getting at in my fitness, success and failure, how I keep my mind straight and stay happy, a few on bjj and a post or 2 about motivation.

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