100 days of happiness and fitness (day 6)

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I had my second swimming lesson today. We had the whole pool to ourselves, so I wasn’t afraid I’d be make a fool of myself in front of anyone. I made it a few step further in the process, staying under for longer, even eventually letting go of the side and having a thrash about in the middle, I may have swam a bit too, but I’ll need more confirmation on that. I still haven’t mastered keeping my head up whilst trying to swim, or not panicking when I feel my feet lifting off the ground, but all in all I’d say it was a success. πŸ˜ƒ

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100 days of happiness and fitness (day 5)

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Jaysus, of all the times I choose to do a 100 days of blogging, I pick the start of my c.a’s. I’m in college all day, then training, then studying, I barely have time to eat and I chose… feckin chose to add this to my plate. Oh the stress of it all πŸ˜„.

I was working with some guys at the gym today, they’d been there about a year and were just talking about how much they’d improved over that time. They told us that before starting, they were out of work and out of school, like I was about 2 years ago, I’m not sure how exactly they got into bjj/mma, probably the same way I did, by getting dragged in by a friend. But they told us, like I’ve told others, that the art has absolutely changed them.

They thought they were at the end, that how they were living was going to be how they would live for the rest of their lives, just like I did when I was in the exact same situation. Now though, they are happier than they’ve ever been. Back in school, just like I am, volunteering, just like me… actually, that’s kind of creepy, are they copying me? 😨.

It’s just amazing to see people turn their lives around, they thought they’d passed the point of no return, and that there was no coming back form it. But then they found something they loved doing, something that gave them the confidence to go after the things they wanted and they’re all the better for it.

It doesn’t matter what it is, for us it was bjj/mma, for you it could be taking a cooking class or fencing I’ve always wanted to try that, it could be writing or white water rafting, woodwork or even stamp collecting. It really does not matter, if you can find the the thing that makes you happy, and as long as you don’t hurt or kill anyone in the process, then I say do it. What are you waiting for?

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I know I’m using this one again, but so what it fits.

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100 days of happiness and fitness (day 4)

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It’s been a long time since the last 100 days post, I lost internet on wednesday morning, I figured it was minor and I thought in would be sorted by the next day but nope, Monday the guy says. No posts for 5 days :(. I’d only just taken up the 100 days challeng too 😧. No matter though, we can amble on a few days later than usual, I’ll just add in everything that happened since then.

Tuesday, was my first day teaching πŸ˜„. I teach the wee ninja class, 14 kids between the ages a 6 and 12 the joys of jiu jitsu… well mostly I would teach them not to hit or bite each other, but when they listen I teach them jiu jitsu.

I’m not used to being around kids, I think I have a little bit of a phobia of them or something. But when my coach asked me to help him out with the class I immediately said yes. Then I inwardly cringed, thinking “what have I gotten myself into?” I can’t work with kids, I don’t even like them. It was the most horrifying and exhausting thing i’d ever done, yet when the class started and I saw the looks on the little guys and girls faces when they get something right for the first time, the way they laughed and giggled during the games. It’s something I’ll never forget and it was truly a rewarding experience.

On Thursday I started my first swimming lesson. At 29 I was still terrified and froze up the moment my toes touched the water, but my S.O. was there to walk me through the initial horrers of wading into the 4 feet of water.

After a little splashing around, I finally worked up the courage to dunk my head under the water and look around. My nose filled with water immediately… lesson 1 hold your nose. On my second dunk my goggles started filling with water too, and my ears, it was all in all a very stressful experience. But I was enjoying every moment of it. Learning how to stay afloat, thrashing around like sharks, playing dead man, it was like a was kid again. I sometimes forget that physical activity can be fun, that it doesn’t have to be all sweat and turmoil, you can actually enjoy the experience of getting your cardio sessions in.

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Friday I worked with another kids class, we had a new boy in that was so terrified I thought he was going to pass out. I felt so bad for him, but every time I went to talk to him he’d run away and hide behind our coat racks, It was heartbreaking. As the class went on though and the games began, he got closer and closer to the mats, until finally when I beckoned him over, he joined in. I was ecstatic and he was… just beaming, we worked together as there was an uneven number, and with everything he get got right and every time I praised him his smile grew bigger and bigger, until he was giggling his way back to his mother. It was a weird feeling of accomplishment, one that I never thought about before.

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My weekend was boring as heck, I spent my time studying for my soft tissue injuries exam, so we didn’t miss much on that front. I’ll try to remain more consistent with the posts now that the aul internet is back.

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100 days of happiness and fitness (day 2)

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I love that image. It’s always nice to be reminded that no matter where I am in my life, I’m not too late in getting there.

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I would always feel like I was falling behind everyone. I left school at 16, and started working. It was for this small cleaning company a ‘friend’ of my dads owned. Little did I know the guy had hired me illegally, I was young and stupid, but my money went into my bank and I thought I was queen of the world with all that cash. I never questioned that he never got me to sign anything, I never questioned the fact I made way less than all my friends who had legitimate jobs.

When I was eventually let go, I still didn’t know any better, at the height of the recession, jobs were scarce so references and background were fully checked. I didn’t have any of those, as a favour to him, he asked that I didn’t use him as a reference. I was an idiot back then. But at the time I didn’t know any better. It took me a long time to sort my life after that. I wish I could go back with the knowledge I have now and slap myself upside the head. Or him, hitting him would be better.

I fell into depression around then too (nice timing), i’d spend day after day in bed only getting up to use the bathroom or to go get some food, I didn’t even try to help myself. That point in my life I was at my lowest.

I thought I’d completely screwed up my life, I thought it was over, that I’d never be able to get a job or do anything for myself again. 

But, I could, it took me some time, I needed to find the confidence to get up and go after what I wanted, first, that’s where bjj/mma came in. Those lessons,  if you can stick with them, will give anyone a confidence boost. With that confidence, I decided to go back to school. Being a mature student, and walking into that class, was one of the most nerve wracking things I’ve ever done. But I’m glad I did, and I’m now in my second year and one of the top in my class (πŸ˜„Brag), and well on my way to beginning a career doing what I love.

I’m not sure when exactly I made the decision to turn my life around, I’m not sure it was ever a decision, that could be made, it just sort of happens. Little by little, if you start small and go after the things you want, eventually you’ll gain the confidence to start wanting more and more for yourself. One thing leads to another and another, and all those things stack up.

So dont think that because your not where you want to be right now means you wont get there. There are plenty of ways, avenues open to those who think they’ve lost their path in life, a little research can go a long.

It’s not easy getting back in the saddle, but it is worth the effort to try.

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100 days of happiness and fitness (day 1)

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I’ve been seeing a lot of posts about 100 days of happiness. Where people share their thoughts and ideas on making life a little bit brighter. I also have a friend who in an effort the make the world a little bit fitter.

So I, in an effort to out do all that noise, πŸ˜„ am going to try and do 100 days of happiness and fitness.

I haven’t really given thought as to how I’m going to go about it. But seeing as its the end of mental health week, i’d like to continue in that mode.

I hope to have at least 1 post a day on what I’m getting at in my fitness, success and failure, how I keep my mind straight and stay happy, a few on bjj and a post or 2 about motivation.

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